An Unexpected Season
I was working on a series for the blog a couple of days ago that I was finding challenging. I was struggling to make sense of what I wanted to say, the words just out of reach. Circumstances were weighing on my mind and kept getting in the way of what I was trying to communicate, and I felt distracted.
I have been dealing with lingering fatigue from a virus I got about 4 weeks ago. I thought I was better, until I wasn’t. It’s been challenging, and I have had to carve out time to rest. Things I have been planning to do have been put on the back burner.
As I tried to focus and the burdens seemed to keep piling up, I began to have a sense of dread and to feel overwhelmed. How was I going to get my ever growing list done? How could I keep up with my tasks when I have to intentionally take time out of my day to rest? How can I help this person that is going through a difficult time? My brain was spinning, my heart was in turmoil.
And then it happened. God quietly spoke to my heart.
“Be still and know that I am God.”
(Ps. 46:10)
It was like He was right in the room with me with His arm around my shoulder, gently reminding me to quiet my heart and my mind and set my focus on Him, instead of my circumstances. He was leading me to quiet, still waters where I could rest.
If I’m honest, I don’t like to be still. I don’t want to rest, and I have been resisting it. I want to be busy and check things off my list and reach my goals. I want to accomplish the projects I’ve been planning for and implement some new ideas. But right now, I just can’t. I have to make space for rest because I know if I push through, I will end up much worse.
I don’t know why God is taking me through this fatigue. I don’t know why my body is betraying me and not allowing me to do things I love. I do know that God has a reason, even if I don’t understand it, and I have been pondering a few things along those lines.
- Perhaps He is calling me to rest, so I will depend more fully on Him.
- Maybe He is waiting patiently for me to declutter my schedule and my mind, so I can hear Him more clearly.
- He could be challenging me to do things differently, and I’m not exactly sure what that looks like yet.
I don’t have the answers for this season, and why God is allowing this, but I do know He is good, and what He allows is best.His plans are different from my plans, and they are always good. I am trusting that in time, He will show me what He is doing and the purpose for this season.
In the meantime, I will rest, pair down my schedule, nourish my body with good food and supplements, and my spirit with God’s Word. And be still and know that He is God.
Supplements I am using.
Mediterranean SaladTo a large dinner bowl combine the following:
1 Roma Tomato - chopped
1 Tablespoon Red Onion - finely chopped
1/4-1/2 Red Bell Pepper - chopped
1 cup Garbanzo Beans
2 Mini Cucumbers - sliced
1/2 Avocado - chopped
1 teaspoon Extra Virgin Olive Oil
1 teaspoon Red Wine Vinegar
1/4 teaspoon Dried Oregano
Salt & Pepper to taste
Toss and Enjoy!!
